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Emily Kendal Frey


IT DID NOT LOSE ITSELF PROPERLY


 
Arguably I am less microscope, than, say, two to ten years ago,

When my insides cupped and emptied, and emptied,

Until the mirrored bottom of my mind dried, exposed to the gods and goddesses

Who shot me with arrows then flayed me, kept the molasses brown meat,

Hung it, separated the dried sinews and wove a cape to be worn

By the sky herself. What I once was is now keeping the sky together

And from my eyes there can be no repaired vision, no adjustment back to focus--

The deer is always disappearing now into darkness.

When at night I take myself from the world

I first unburden the lime-crusted, you-salted, sugar-wet heart from its hiding place.

A heart would be better as a garnish but mine insists on keeping me as home

And so I allow it. I move it to the sky, to the iCloud of heaven. This is the bargain.

This is what I died for. To sleep without love in my body. To dream, unbothered by dream.




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Emily Kendal Frey lives in Portland, Oregon. She is the author of several chapbooks and chapbook collaborations, including Frances, Airport, Baguette, and The New Planet. The Grief Performance, her first full-length collection, won the Norma Farber First Book Award from The Poetry Society of America in 2012. Her second collection, Sorrow Arrow, was published in 2014 by Octopus Books.

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The MFA in Creative and Professional Writing Program
Department of Language, Literature, Culture, and Writing

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The William Paterson University of New Jersey
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  • About
    • Masthead
    • Submissions
    • NJ High School Writing Contest
    • Rachel Wetzsteon Chapbook Award
    • NJ Undergraduate Writing Contest
    • In Print
    • Subscribe
    • Internship Opportunity
    • Links
    • WPU MFA
  • Nonfiction
    • Jill Darling, "Linger Here"
    • Charles Tarlton, "Har Mĕgiddōn (הר מגידו): The Coming American Fiasco"
    • Martha Wiseman, "Loose Ends"
    • Jan Jolly, "Through My Father's Glasses"
    • Kristina Moriconi, "Still Looking"
    • Wm. Anthony Connolly, "IGY"
    • Cal Freeman, "Loosestrife"
    • Jim Daniels
    • W.F. Lantry, "The Strange Beauty of the Unfamiliar"
    • Michael Roloff, "Accretion"
    • Andrew Sunshine, "John Hancock's John Hancock"
    • Diane Payne, "3 micro memoirs"
    • Luc Sante, "Flesh and Bone"
    • Isobel O'Hare, "Failure: A Love Letter"
    • Melissa Wiley, "Barbed Wire Fence"
    • Ashley Wilkinson, "fractional distillation"
  • Poetry
    • Orion Allen
    • Mark DeCarteret 2024
    • Mary Christine Delea
    • Kara Lewis
    • Jim Daniels
    • Martine van Bijlert
    • Adam Day
    • Sunday T. Saheed
    • Alexandria Peary 2023
    • Fiona Lu
    • Harley Chapman
    • Richard Ryal
    • Sherwood Anderson
    • Mark DeCarteret
    • Dennis Hinrichsen Poetry
    • Daniel Biegelson
    • Natan Last
    • Michael Chang
    • D E Steward
    • Benjamin Paloff Poetry
    • David Dodd Lee
    • Isabelle Doyle
    • Kathleen Heil
    • Leonard Kress
    • Lauren Tess
    • Cesca Janece Waterfield
    • Billy Cancel Poetry
    • Scott Minar
    • Mark Decarteret
    • Greg Glazner
    • Bruce McRae
    • Maureen Thorson
  • Fiction
    • On Experimental Fiction
    • Leonnard Menifee, "The Long, Long Ice Picks At the Old Frostee Freeze"
    • Maisy Phelps, "Marina and Marina and Marina and Marina"
    • Mary Lewis, "Red Knees"
    • Anna Mantzaris, "Strange Magic"
    • Ross Kimberlin, "The Queen of Emilys"
    • Mark Cassidy, "How I Met My Wife"
    • Emily Trachtenberg, "Plum"
    • Hector Donovan-Gonzalez
    • Christopher Linforth, "Zia"
    • Jenessa Abrams, "You Never Wish That Upon Anyone"
    • Eros Livieratos, "On Feeling"
    • Halsted M. Bernard, "Your Hands"
    • Justin Meckes, "The Gash"
    • Reb Livingston, from "Bombyonder"
    • Craig Foltz, "Without Stigma"
  • Art